okay so I was re-reading parts of Hollow Your Bones Like A Bird (lbr, when am I not re-reading parts of the toasterverse) and I was thinking about Tony and Clint’s weird and wonderful friendship and how they are so similar and so different and how they parallel each other
and I was trying to fix in on what the main difference was, how they can be so similar and act so different - that things about them that are very much the same at the core are played out so differently when it hit me
Clint’s defence is to go small - to hide, to be quiet and not show himself
Tony’s is to be AS BIG AND LOUD AS POSSIBLE, shove everything in your face
and well, that’s the difference between abuse and neglect isn’t it
I like playing with their differing attitudes towards food as well.
Tony, who always had enough to eat, but seldom had family meals, is completely offhand about food. He knows good food, but as often as not, we see him drinking his calories, through alcohol or smoothies. He’s almost disinterested, except if he’s offering it (Strawberries with Pepper and Blueberries with Bruce) or it’s being offered to him (Pizza with Obie.)
He doesn’t consider it, he’s always had it and it means nothing.
Clint (assuming his comic back story) likely spent portions of his childhood hungry. He always eats. Because on some level, he’s never sure if he’s going to have it again. And he provides food in my verse because that was something concrete that others did for him, that was affection that didn’t need to be spoken.
Or it was a basic need that he learned to interpret as affection because he was so desperate for it.
I love it when I read character analysis and decomposition and it doesn’t smack me in the face with amazement, but I find myself nodding along and thinking, yes, obviously, this is perfectly obvious to me. Which must be why I never quite noticed it before.